Archive | February 2014

The Hands of the Lord

ImageWhen God made cowboys, with a dash ADD,

He knew their kind were just like Him, and needed kept busy.

So He gave a mind to contemplate, the troubles of the time,

And gave’em hands to operate, on the problems that they find.

So cowboys hands over years, have done a lot of chores,

When the sun arrives each morning, there are many works in store.

A cowboys hands tell a story, of all the labors that he’s done,

In every weather pattern, in snow and burning sun.

They’ve laid rope to tree, pulled calves in twelve below,

Stretched barbs on wire, stacked hay a-many load.

They’ve thrown a thousand loops, a great loop perhaps one,

They’ve worked from dawn to dusk, they’d hate to slow down some.

Braided strips of leather, carved designs in hide,

Planted posts to keep his stock from rangin’ the country-side.

A fine touch with the reins, a hard touch with a quirt,

Steady work with a rifle, unfaltered by his work.

They’ve forged a hardened shoe, set it solid on the hoof,

Keep their family fed, in clothes and under roof.

The cowboy’s hands are often hidden, beneath the dirt and grime,

Remains in them power to act, to work and pen a rhyme.

My grandfather ran about 15 head of cattle when I was growing up.  I realize that’s not much to many, but it was the closest think I knew to a ranch.  Around most of his acreage ran a single strand of electrified barbed wire.  This hot-wire ran through some pretty nasty terrain in some places, so every night it was necessary to do a once around to check the fence.  Some nights, if I arrived at just the right time, I would get to go up and water the cows and check the fence with him.  Grandpa for years made tires at Goodyear and ran some cows.  Both jobs were very hard on hands.  I was always amazed at the way he could manhandle barbed wire, stick a post in the ground, out muscle the water trough, and twist balin’ wire.  His hands were the roughest I had ever seen.  I still remember him, wrenching loose staples, wielding a hay hook, and twisting wrenches.  Grandma kept a dried out bar of lava soap next to the sink that Grandpa used to wash his hands…it hurt my soft hands to use that rough soap.  In his hands was the capability to tackle any job.

The last post discussed the differences n the names of God (‘elohim v. Yahweh).  ‘Elohim testified to Creator and Power, whereas Yahweh spoke to the personal, relational God who was in regular contact with his people.  It is the personal relationship Yahweh had with his people that caused the authors of scripture to speak in poetics and ascribe to Him human attributes.  To be fair, ‘elohim is occasionally linked to physical characteristics, but not nearly with the regularity of Yahweh.  One of the major attributes to Yahweh are His hands.

  The hand [hb. yad] of Yahweh showed the Lord’s power in action.

Without equal, the biggest event in Hebrew history was the Exodus.  The night that a nation of slaves walked out of the greatest nation one earth, carrying their wealth, and taking from them their honor (Exodus 12.31-42).  That night was special.  That day of victory would be remembered for generations.  Every year the Israelites would celebrate the night that they routed Egypt, became their own people, with their own identity, because of the work of their God, the work that He accomplished with His own hands.

When Israel was to celebrate this day, it was for one reason: to remind them that the Lord brought them out of Egypt with His mighty hand. (Ex. 13.3, 9, 16)  When their kids ask what the celebration is for, the Israelites can tell them about the mighty hand of God that brought them out of Egypt (Ex. 13.14).  The hand of God is God’s power in action in the lives of His people.  Four times in 13 verses, God’s hand is at work, actively involved in bringing the people out of Egypt.  There is no way they could have done it on their own, but the hand of Yahweh is more than capable.

The Hands of Yahweh are never idle.  It was His hand that brought the plagues upon Egypt (Ex. 6.1).  His hand would be so heavy, so mighty in dealing with the Egyptians, that Pharaoh would drive them out of the country.  In the same way that God will force out the Canaanites before Israel, Egypt will so badly want to be done with them, that they will drive [hb. Garas] them out of Egypt.  It is God’s activity that will bring about the event that would forever be remembered as the greatest act in the history of the people.

The hands of Yahweh, are not just God’s power in action, but his mighty ability on display.  The word for mighty [hb. hazaq] is a word reserved for only the strongest, hardest, and resilient powers.  The verb form of hazaq is the word used for the ’hardening’ of Pharaoh’s heart.  The power and supremacy found in the Lord’s hand is unequaled in the universe.  In the battle between Pharaoh’s hardened heart and the Lord’s mighty hand.  God had already warned Moses that only the most powerful action would free his people, the Lord’s hand. (Ex. 3.19)

Yahweh’s hands, His power in activity, brought the Israelites redemption from the land of Egypt (Deut. 7.8).  But 1500 years later it would be Jesus hands, pierced by nails, that would provide for our redemption.  Jesus hands held him on the cross to pay for our sins.  It was the Lord’s power in action by sending Jesus that would provide salvation for us today.  The hands of the Lord, a picture of His ability and activity, would save his people from slavery in Egypt and our slavery to sin. (Rom. 6.6-7)  God has the power to work in situations we deem hopeless, the ability to accomplish things we never can imagine, and the strength to act where we can’t.

Is there a time when you have seen the Lord’s hands and his power in action?  What thoughts come to mind when you think of God’s power?


Bull Names

Crooked Nose of Harry Vold

Crooked Nose of Harry Vold

Names convey so much about their bearer. At the point in Hondo where Angie Lowe learns the man sleeping on her cabin floorK is the famed Calvary rider, Hondo Lane, she views him completely different.  When the Spaniard, in Gladiator, takes of his helmet and reveals himself to be Maximus, the leader of the Free Companies, the movie takes a different turn.  Names carry with them, history, character, and personality.  When the Regulators hear the name Buckshot Roberts, they marvel at the fact that “he’s killed more people than small pox” and you can hear the tension in their voices.  A name has the ability to convey a lot about its bearer.

In Genesis 1-2, God’s character is revealed in not one, but two names.  Each name used in a way to highlight His array of attributes.  In Genesis 1, ‘elohim is the Creator who is all-powerful.  Genesis 2 introduces the LORD, Yahweh, who is close and personal, who does things kind of the way we do them.  When God is dealing with man directly, Adam in the garden, Israel in the desert, the prophets in Jerusalem, the name Yahweh is used showing His proximity to man.  Yahweh breathes and forms (Gen 2.7); He walks (3.8) and speaks (2.18).  It is no coincidence that this name was given to Moses by God at the burning bush (Exodus 3.14) to tell Pharaoh who is now calling the shots and will be with Israel: Yahweh.  When God is triumphing over enemies, when creating, and ruling the earth, the name ‘elohim best describes Him.  ‘Elohim created [hb. Bara] from nothing (1.1) and made (1.26) man in his image; He blessed (1.28) and provided for man (1.29).  God has revealed Himself to man in these two names, and more adequately than in one name.

The two names of God, as He introduces Himself, as ‘elohim and Yahweh provide a glimpse of all the things He is as our relationship plays out.  Yahweh cares about our problems…and ‘Elohim is powerful enough to do something about it.  ‘Elohim’s power is displayed in the “hands” or the “arm” of Yahweh. The two names show with greater completeness the character and personality of the God we serve.

When you think about God, which “name” are you more drawn too?  An all-powerful ‘Elohim side of God, or a more personal Yahweh side?  Which is easier to worship, a close Yahweh or a transcendent ‘Elohim?  How does God, being both powerful enough to deal with our problems (‘Elohim) and personal enough to be in relationship to us (Yahweh) change the way we think about Him?  Two names for the same Entity (Person).  I for one am thankful that His names cover the expanse, the depth, the character and personality of who our Heavenly Father is: both powerful and personal.

He Chose Last: Daniel Unruh

Daniel Unruh at the CYRA Finals taking a shot for me.

He Chose Last (and I’m thankful): A Bullfighters story

Daniel Unruh Protection Bullfighter

Daniel Unruh
Protection Bullfighter

“One of the teachers of the law came and heard them debating.  Noticing that Jesus had given them a good answer, he asked him, “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?  “The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’  There is no commandment greater than these.” (Mark 12.28-31)

Where do you fall in the hierarchy?  There are a couple guys I know who choose last place as a career.  Men like Daniel Unruh and Lucas Littles, Cody Webster and Dusty Tuckness.

A teacher of the law posed this question: “Of all the commandments, which is the most important?”

Jesus answers simply, (and I’m paraphrasing): “Love God with all you have, and love others like you love yourself”

Jesus points out the place we should take in relationship to God and others.  Jesus tells the teacher: Mission—Men—MeWe take last.

In the video above, Daniel Unruh chose last.   Jesus tells the teacher is that we are to “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.”  This is our primary function, our mission if you will, as human beings.  We were created to love God and be in relationship with Him.  Daniel’s mission as a bullfighter is to keep the bullrider safe.   Daniel, in the purple, is seen twice trying to get Jess Pope’s hand out of the bull rope.  Twice he wades in there to grab the tail and pull.  Daniel’s first mission is to protect the bullrider.

The second thing Jesus tells the teacher is to love other people (31).  He says, love the men (and women) around you!  We do this by serving those around us and bearing each other’s burdens.  I am in the dark blue shirt in the video.  As I was laying infront the bull, I looked up to see a set of horns coming at me and then a flash of purple.  Daniel had placed himself between the horns of the bull to take the shot for me.  The second purpose, after protecting the bullrider, is to protect the other men in the arena.  Some times it’s a gate man, the other bullfighter, a pick up man or barrel man.  Everyone else in the arena are the bullfighters responsibility as well.

If we are to love God and then others, where does that leave us?  Last place.  In the grand scheme of things, Jesus shows us that last place in the hierarchy is where we are to live, to die, to thrive!  Daniel chooses last every time in the arena.  He has takes shots for bullriders all the time.  He has taken shots for me, because he understands that he lives in last place.  He is the last one to safety.  He lives by the motto:

“Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.” (John 15.13)

Jesus spoke these words the night he would be betrayed.  The night that he showed the disciples the full extent of his love (John 13.1) and told them to copy him (13.34-35).  Jesus chose last!

It was in the garden he prayed: “God, not what I will but what you will.” (Mark 14.36)  Jesus stayed on mission following God to the cross.  He came behind his men, as he came “not to be served but to serve and to give his life as a ransom for many.” (Mark 10.45).  He gave up the himself, on the cross.  “With a loud cry, Jesus breathed his last.” (Mark 15.37)  In the hierarchy, he chose last.

As you go through the day, how often do you live in first place, choosing your way instead of God’s?  How often do you get off-mission?  How may times are you serving others? Holding a door open? Taking the trash of another? Letting someone ahead of you? inconveniencing yourself to convenience others?  When do other men come before you?  How often does “mechoose last?

Makin’ a Good Loop: Salvation comes to the Roping Box


Christian Youth Rodeo Association
Burlington, Kansas 2013

Now I don’t adhere to Darwin’s Theory of Biological evolution…but there seems to be some merit too it in the Rodeo Arena.  The problem presents itself as to who are the branches on the evolutionary tree, and who are the roots.  As a bullfighter, I’m considered contract help, meaning I get a guaranteed paycheck, but I’m working for it.  Sometimes long hours or injury and usually not very desirable jobs.  The Rough Stock riders and Ropers are the reason people show up to the performances so I guess they evolved from the primordial sludge that I represent as contract help.  The Rough Stock guys travel lighter but sleep 7 to a room.  They hit up more rodeos but they get hurt more often.  They usually blow into town to compete the day of and leave as soon as they are done…a roughstock rider doesn’t let the grass grow beneath his feet.  Ropers on the other hand, spend more in gas and on equipment, they travel with a rolling motel behind them and an awful persnickety travel partner (their horse).  But they do tend to have more longevity, smell better, wear clean jeans, and don’t jam 9 to a honda civic or double bed like bull riders do.  I don’t know who goes at the top of the tree but i know that Ropers usually think they do…and I really cant blame them. (this is only men’s events, because we all know Barrel Racers are the most important people in rodeo!)

I have tried to rope on numerous occasions and each time looking worse than prior.  My method of roping is run the calf until it gets so tired that it stands still enough for you to place the rope over its head.  For the record, it wont win you many ropings to do it that way.  To throw a good loop is one feeling that has eluded me thus far in my life.  I’m pretty sure that my form is so bad that no number of Roy “the Super Looper” clinics could straighten me out.  For one thing i don’t have the attention to detail that I see most ropers have.  The best seem to have a little OCD to them that I am lacking.  The saddle needs to be just right, or their hat, or shirt, or glove, or [insert any other piece of equipment they posses], which for the money some of them rope for makes complete sense.

Usually about the time I release my loop, is when I begin checking the rope.  I will see a kink, or knot, or twist to it that renders my lasso completely useless.  I have a booger of a time keeping my honda right, my spoke adjusted, my coils held, and my loop built all while trying to ride (I was just not made to do that many things at once).  But as I said, I never catch these things at an opprotune time, but as the loop is traveling adjacent to my horses head or hovering above my target.  The issue is simply that my rope was plagued with imperfections which caused it to become useless.

Hebrews 12.1 says: “let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles…” (gk. euperistatos)   Tangles, knots, kinks, all of these things can happen to a good rope if care is not taken.  These issues get in the way of the rope doing what it was meant to do: catch calves.  When Hebrews talked about being entangled, perhaps you thought of an extension cord, christmas lights, or a fishing line.  My first thought was the calf rope that rides around in my pickup.  It has been everywhere, sat on by kids, roped with, stepped on and everything else.  It is completely useless as a calf rope now.

In Genesis 1-2 we were created to do a bunch of different things:

  1. Reflect God to the World (Gen 1.26-28)
  2. Increase in number and fill the earth (Gen 1.28)
  3. Work in the Garden (Gen. 2.5, 15)
  4. Rule the earth (Gen. 1.26, 28)
  5. Take care of/utilize/steward the earth (Gen 1.29)
  6. Dominion over the animals (Gen. 2.19-20)
  7. Relationship with God (Gen. 3.8)
  8. Relationship with other people (Gen. 2.18)

The problem is that in Genesis 3, when sin entered the picture all of these things got flipped upside down.  The very things that we were created to do was hindered by our disobedience to God.  Just like the rope that is all bound up and tangled, we forfeited our purpose because of our entanglements (Heb. 12.2).  We were made to reflect God, but now we live to glorify ourselves.  Filling the earth was supposed to be fun, now it involves pain (Gen. 3.16; and all the moms say amen!)  We were made to work, but now we toil (Gen 3.17).  We were meant to Rule the earth and steward it, now it produces thorns and thistels and serecia lespedeza that no matter how many times you walk and spray your fields with 24D it wont die (Gen 3.19).  We were meant to rule the animals, but we listened to the snake.  There is a massive schism between us and God called sin (Isaiah 59.1-2) and there is issues between us and each other.  Everything about what we were created for has changed because of our disobedience.

But just like a rope, when the knots get removed, it returns to its form, its shape, its purpose.  In the midst of this change, is the first propehcy of Jesus: “And I will put enmity between you and the woman, and between your offspring and hers: he will crush your head and you will strike his heel.” (Gen 3.15)  This is the first step in God’s plan of getting our rope unknotted.  This is God’s first step in saving us from our sins.  When Jesus came in the New Testament, saw the unused ropes lying around, he took it upon himself to restore us, to restore our purpose, to restore our relationships, and make us useful once again!  “God demonstrates his own love in this:  While we were still tangled up, Christ died for us!” (Romans 5.8)  The rope was made to catch calves, but a tangled rope wont ever know the joy of doing what it was made to do.  Go to God and let him fix the problem.

Rodeo Tales and God Stories: What Christians can learn from Rough Stock Riders

judd pope autograph card

Judd “the Stud” Pope in Action

Rough Stock riders have the best stories. One of my favorite activities at youth rodeos is to watch the roughies interact and go about their business.  Whether a kid rides bulls, sheep, steers, or calves, they all have the same walk: “the bullriders limp”.  When asked, they will assuredly be able to give you an account of the size, type, and temperament of the animal and how they came to acquire their limp.  Young bullfighters are the same way.  Daniel and I’s help at the youth rodeos, Judd “the Stud” Pope, age 7, is always beat up from some hooky calf or temperamental steer.  He is usually nursing some kind of injury that always has as story behind it.  Ropers are the same way when they talk about their horses.  Every roper has a story about them and their horse, an injury that their horse has overcome, or a quick run made possible by the horsepower they ride.  That being said, older rodeo contestants aren’t any better.  We all have stories about rides, runs, animals, and traveling partners.  My favorite stories to tell, be it injuries, travels, or accomplishments, seem to have rodeo as a backdrop.  Rodeo People are proud of their stories…and more Christians should be!  Stories are deeply personal and intimate.  Stories communicate our character, reveal our passions, and express our emotions.  When someone tells you their story, you know what makes them tick.  The men of Scripture knew this.

The Bible begins with 10 toldoth’s (heb. “this is the account of ________”) in the book of Genesis.  These “accounts” are the stories of what brought Israel into Egypt, a story that Moses was very familiar with telling.  David, when trying to persuade Saul to let him fight Goliath, doesn’t offer him an itemized list of his strengths, but tells Saul his story: “Your servant has been keeping his father’s sheep.  When a lion or a bear came and carried off a sheep from the flock, I went after it, struck it and rescued the sheep from its mouth.  When it turned on me, I seized it by its hair, struck it and killed it…The Lord who delivered me from the paw of the lion and the paw of the bear will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine.” (1 Sam 17.34-35, 37)  Paul, when on trial, summons his chief witness of God’s power, himself, and tells his story before King Agrippa (Acts 26) and an angry crowd (Acts 22).  Scattered throughout his Epistles, Paul inserts his story into key places to connect with his audience, to spread the gospel, and to illustrate his teaching. In 2 Corinthians he discusses his struggles (2 Cor. 11.16-12.10) and Galatians its his receiving of the gospel (Gal. 1.11-24).  In Ephesians 3 he argues for the grace and message given him (Eph 3) in the same way he criticizes confidence in the flesh in Philippians 3.4-10.  With the Thessalonians he makes it clear that he set an “example” for them, a “model” for them to follow. (1 Thes. 1.5;2.9; 2 Thes. 3.7-9).  And with Timothy he doesn’t even need to tell the story, because like all good wingmen, Timothy was with him for much of them. (2 Tim 1.13; 2.2; 3.10-11)  Paul’s story gives guidance to his message, background to his teaching, and insight to his words.  But there is one thing it cant do.

The stories of others can inspire us to action (think of the last scene of Braveheart and William Wallace’s effect on Robert DeBruce) but it doesn’t usually change the way we view ourselves.  When Paul wants Timothy to remain strong, to act, and to stay the course, Paul reminds him not of his story, but of Timothy’s.  In 2 Timothy 1, Paul brings up Timothy’s story.  “I have been reminded of your sincere faith, which first lived in your grandmother Lois and your mother Eunice and, I am persuaded now lives in you also.  For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands.” (2 Tim. 1.5-6)  Timothy “continue in what you have learned and have become convinced of, because you know those from whom you learned it, and how from infancy you have known the holy Scriptures…” (2 Tim. 3.14-15)

Our stories have the ability to bring people closer to God, to challenge them to follow Christ closer, and to give hope to those struggling.  Our stories bring color to the message we live out and preach, amplification to God’s interaction with man, and testimony to a life lived with God.  Our story is a powerful tool that God can use…but only if we know it, if we own it.  I challenge you to put it into words.  Attached to this post is a handout on how to effectively articulate God’s work in our lives.  Take some time this week, as a devotional exercise, to put your story onto paper.  Someone might need your story (God’s story in your life) this week!

Testimony Tips: Testimony Tips–How to write your testimony

They could complain about the cold…but won’t

When I hopped in the truck at sun-up this morning, my phone read -8 degrees.  I turned the key and felt the warm air hit me in the face and had never been happier that I didn’t have a ranch to take care of.   Yesterday, while I sat in my living room under a blanket, I saw pictures of guys, in blizzard like conditions, taking care of their animals, doctoring calves, and driving the feed truck with the windows down.  I have been in those situations, the cold, the snow, and the rain, and I say this with the utmost respect, but I’m glad it was they and not I this day.

A few years back, I was feeding on a morning very similar to the ones we felt this week here in the Midwest.  I had tried to ride in my coveralls, but coveralls in the saddle is a recipe for disaster.  I chose to go with jeans and chaps, and about 5 layers up top.  After 1 hour of checking cows, I didn’t think that I could get any colder.  Then I had to chop open a hole in the pond.  I thought before that I couldn’t get colder, then I knew.  With no feeling in my fingers, I wrapped the reins around my forearm (I’m to manly to wear mittens) and finished checking cows.  I had lost feeling from the knee down, and had icicles forming in my beard.  I was taken back as to how men work in those conditions on a regular basis.  Then it hit me…

There wasn’t a choice.  Animals need to be fed and watered.  Calves need to be checked and doctored.  There is no putting-off-until-tomorrow, no out-sourcing or contracting-out.  When it comes to days off, there are none.  Hard work is what makes them who they are.  Hard work is something that Paul made a focal point of his ministry.  Paul lived out the proverb: “Lazy hands make a man poor, but diligent hands bring wealth.” (Proverbs 10.4)  In Corinth he split time as a tentmaker and preacher (Acts 18.3).  In Thessalonica he “worked night and day, laboring and toiling so that we would not be a burden to any of you.” (2 Thess. 3.8)  Its clear from reading through the letters to the Thessalonians, the Paul expects them to follow his “model” (1 Thes. 3.9) and their “example” (1 Thes. 3.7).

As I was looking at facebook and reading through Thessalonians, I was reminded of the verses that I want my life to reflect.  I want to live out Paul’s command in 1 Thessalonians 4.11-12: “Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business, and to work with your hands, just as we told you, so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.”  Paul understood that our ability to work was part of our being. (Gen 2.15)  I know people who hit the big bucks by suing a company.  I also know others who put down hours they don’t work.  I have seen laziness first hand, and can’t stand those who refuse to give their best.  Paul would tell us “to never tire of doing what’s right.” (2 Thess. 3.13)  In a previous life, this tiring of doing right killed me.  I struggled to remain diligent in my work as I watched others around me.  I want to get better at this…regardless of what is going on around me, continuing my work regardless of my surroundings.

So to you farmers and ranchers out there who work tirelessly, thanks for your example.  For those of you who give your best every day, thanks for living out scripture.  Hard work is essential to the Christian life and there are few things better than a hard days work.  It is imperative, that we as disciples, live our lives, do our work, in a way that people look at us and are encouraged.  Do we work in this way?  Are the people we work alongside encouraged because of the effort we give?  I want to be the kind of guy that Paul was thinking of in Thessalonians…and if I’m not, I sure aim to be!

The Heart of Horses and Humans: When Burn-out Wins


It’s a well-known fact that horses teach things that we are too hard headed to learn otherwise, but do we really emulate their lives?  Will James’ classic story Smoky the Cow Horse is being lived out by people all over the place.  If you are unfamiliar with the tale, Smokey is a mouse-colored horse born on the open range that belonged to the Rocking R ranch.  After 4 years of running the range, he is ridden for the first time, builds a relationship with Clint the trainer, and utilized to his full potential as a cow horse.  In Clint’s mind, Smoky was the finest cow horse the world had ever seen.  He thrived on being utilized, challenged, and working.  One day during a snowstorm, a man came and drove Smoky and his band of horses into a trap and changed their brands.  The thief abused Smoky and pushed him to a breaking point.  When Smoky retaliated, the man made him into a rodeo bronc.  Through the Rodeo, Smoky’s name was changed to “The Cougar” and men challenged his ability daily.  When Smoky, now infamous as the Cougar, one day just stopped bucking..  He didn’t see the thrill of it anymore.

The Cougar was sold to a stable that needed another saddle horse for tours.  Another name change and Cloudy became a favorite amongst visitors.  During one ride, after years of tours, a young girl found the thrill of running Cloudy.  She pushed him so hard that steam rose from his back and sweat poured from his hide.  James writes: “The feel of the sweat and lather that covered the horse left her dumb, and then she noticed how hard he was breathing…She’d never seen a horse shake and quiver all over like that one was doing.  He seemed hardly able to stand up, rocked back and forth like he was going to keel over any minute.  Cloudy was jiggered and his staggering scared her all the more.”  She walked Cloudy into the creek to cool him off, but the walk back was like a “funeral march.”  Cloudy, unable to recover from that heart breaking run, was burnt-out and sold to a man who carried chicken feed on a cart where he waited to die.  Smoky’s heart was gone in much the same way that Timothy was struggling in Ephesus.

Timothy had been helping Paul for nearly 20 years.  He began as a young man, when he joined the second missionary journey at Lystra. (Acts 16.1-3)  He was with Paul as he wrote letters, preached sermons, and stood for faith.  He was also imprisoned along side Paul (Philemon 1.1; Col. 1.1; Phil 1.1).  Paul had left Timothy in Ephesus to minister to the church there as Paul continued to travel and encourage Churches around the world, but it wasn’t going well.  Ephesus was a hard city to do ministry in.  Magic and Divination was rampant, the morality of the city was atrocious, and the church was struggling.  Timothy, feeling a bit overwhelmed in his first ministry, sickliness is taken hold of him (1 Tim 5.23) and his youth is being called out.  It is a tough road in ministry.

Ministry and service has a way of taking it out of a person.  Getting caught up in schedules, calendars, administration, and tasks.  Before we even know it, we are not doing the things that we were created to do.  Timothy was extremely gifted for ministry but the ministry was killing him.   Paul understands how the day to day can cause take focus from the important.  Paul starts off his final letter to Timothy reminding him to “fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying on of my hands.  For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline.” (2 Timothy 1.6-7)

Image When it comes to ministry, Timothy’s giftedness wasn’t being used in the way it should be.  Smoky, the greatest cowhorse on the range, was meant to be saddled, rode, worked, and challenged.  Smokey loved to learn new things, to partner with Clint, and to work.  Timothy was meant to do ministry, to teach, to believe, and to invest in others.  Somwhere in the doldrums of ministry he forgot that.  Paul, playing the part of mentor, reminds Timothy to use his gift.  The quickest path to burn-out in ministry, in faith, and in ministry, is to feel like your gifts are not being used.   I speak this from personal experience.  I grew embittered in ministry because I felt like the things I was called to do were either unappreciated or untapped.  Through these times, Paul’s words to Timothy rang true every day.  I knew what I was supposed to be doing, but wasn’t able to put it into practice.

How does it get fixed?  For Cloudy, it was a trip that his owner took him to town to run errands.  The old chicken farmer, pulled him up next to a hotel lobby, where two cattle buyers sat inside.  One of which was Clint.  He couldn’t even recognize Smokey beneath the disguise of cloudy.  Days later, Clint saved Cloudy from the whip of his owner.  In the investigation, Clint learned the true identity of the mouse colored horse and took him home.  After months of nursing him back to health and putting meat on his bones, the spark returned to Smoky’s eyes.  When Clint opened the corral gate to let the horses range for the summer, he didn’t expect to see Smoky again for the summer.  James finishes the story this way: “Clint dropped his bucket in surprise at what he heard and then seen.  For, standing out a ways, slick and shiny, was the old mouse-colored horse…the heart of Smoky had come to life again.”  It was he and Clint’s relationship and his giftedness the fanned the flame of his heart and gave passion to heart.  Timothy needed to be doing what he was created to do to keep his heart in ministry.

All of us have lost heart at some point in time.  I am still trying to recapture mine.  It is vital to our hearts, that we serve and act in the ways that God has wired us.  So how do we do that?  If you have lost your heart, like I had mine, her are three things for you to do:

  1. Find your giftedness…know your spiritual gifts and then put them into action.  Your heart will return when you are being utilized.
  2. Read stories…the Bible is full of people who learned how they connect and worship and serve God.  Study the lives of Paul, Timothy, Joshua, Jeremiah, Nehemiah, and others.  Find one of them that you connect with and dive in!
  3. Serve…our hearts come alive when they are put into the service of God.  God is the one who gave us our passions and dreams.  They were given to us in order to be in service to Him.  Come alive as you serve Him.

Find your heart, by learning how God made you and wants to use you.  Like what happened to Smoky, the world can do a number on a heart.  We owe it ourselves and God, to find our hearts and put them to work.